so little time

can you believe that i was able to squeeze in a relaxing shower last night? thank goodness. i was sweating from moving around so much that i turned the ac on even though everyone else in the house was freezing. i needed a shower. between feeding and cleaning, i was lucky to have this time to myself thanks to ric aka jun holding our seven week old son for the duration of my shower. and as i was letting the cool water hit my face and body, i couldn't help but think of what my next post on this blog would be. it ranged from explaining myself further to sharing our nicu experience to changing the name of the blog (which i did) and why (probably not doing).

where time stands still

when i woke up this morning after a sleepless night of feeding and changing, i still didn't know what to blog about. then as i stared at the laptop screen, i thought why not talk about time. how little of it there is and how it varies from going superslow to superfast. i swear it was just yesterday when my first two boys looked exactly like my third boy. and i have pictures to prove it. luckily. or else it might've been hard to picture it as my memory isn't all that reliable. and now all these questions fill my head. where did time go? did i use it well? can i get it back? what can i do this time around to make sure i'm not wasting it? how do you equally divide your time between the kids to ensure that they still feel loved by you at the end of the day? i guess the cliche response is to spend every minute like it was your last. but this is easier said than done, no? with so little time, how do you make sure you're living life to its fullest? and then we have these eureka moments. you know, when you look at your kids' faces while they sleep and think to yourself "i am the luckiest person in the world". or when you see something in nature that lets you take a deep breath and say "gosh, what a wonderful world". the answers sometimes stare you in the face without you even realizing it. and that's when time stands still. now take a picture and don't forget it.


lots of love - carlafelix