so little time

can you believe that i was able to squeeze in a relaxing shower last night? thank goodness. i was sweating from moving around so much that i turned the ac on even though everyone else in the house was freezing. i needed a shower. between feeding and cleaning, i was lucky to have this time to myself thanks to ric aka jun holding our seven week old son for the duration of my shower. and as i was letting the cool water hit my face and body, i couldn't help but think of what my next post on this blog would be. it ranged from explaining myself further to sharing our nicu experience to changing the name of the blog (which i did) and why (probably not doing).

where time stands still

when i woke up this morning after a sleepless night of feeding and changing, i still didn't know what to blog about. then as i stared at the laptop screen, i thought why not talk about time. how little of it there is and how it varies from going superslow to superfast. i swear it was just yesterday when my first two boys looked exactly like my third boy. and i have pictures to prove it. luckily. or else it might've been hard to picture it as my memory isn't all that reliable. and now all these questions fill my head. where did time go? did i use it well? can i get it back? what can i do this time around to make sure i'm not wasting it? how do you equally divide your time between the kids to ensure that they still feel loved by you at the end of the day? i guess the cliche response is to spend every minute like it was your last. but this is easier said than done, no? with so little time, how do you make sure you're living life to its fullest? and then we have these eureka moments. you know, when you look at your kids' faces while they sleep and think to yourself "i am the luckiest person in the world". or when you see something in nature that lets you take a deep breath and say "gosh, what a wonderful world". the answers sometimes stare you in the face without you even realizing it. and that's when time stands still. now take a picture and don't forget it.


lots of love - carlafelix

43 things

yesterday, i got five emails from 43 things that went something like this:

Dear future self,

I'm reminding you about your stated goal on 43 things, to
"get out of debt/own a farm/save money/own the sopranos dvd set/get a tattoo".

How's it going?

Sincerely,
Your past self

i must've set it to remind me a year later so that i don't forever forget these goals. needless to say, i have not done anything to get any closer to accomplishing these goals. well, maybe the 'get a tatoo' one. but for some reason, i tend to be braver about it when i'm pregnant. and i've heard that pregnant women and tattoos don't mix. especially when hormone-ridden, impulsive decisions are at an all time high. i don't think your S.O would appreciate you having "i hate you for making me so fat" written permanently across your body. i know i wouldn't. even though i may have felt that way at that exact moment.

a tattoo you'll definitely regret

anyway, back to the goals. i find that they've changed a little. 'own a sopranos dvd set' is definitely NOT high on my priority list right now and i'm the only silly one who has that goal. and maybe making short term specific goals that aren't materialistic would be more motivating as they're easier to attain and don't cost money (the other two on my list are 'go to japan' and 'build a porch'). did i really think i would do all of this in a year? i wonder how long it would take for the average person.

my future farm

the great thing about the site is that they don't give you a time limit on your goals. they send you the reminders whenever you want. so if you're the procrastinating type like me, then maybe it's better to have them remind you once a month rather than once a year. so i'm going to re-think my goals in the next couple of days and update them. also, i took the personality quiz and the result is below. it was nice to be able to tick the checkbox of things i have done. yay for me. oh, and did i mention that these guys wrote a book?

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm a

Self-Knowing Traveling Romantic

love love love - carlafelix

hello,goodbye

that's what i wanted to name this blog. i guess i could still do it but laziness prevails. maybe after this post. another one was 'two of us'. if you're a beatles fan, then you'd know that the abovementioned are songs of theirs. two of my favourite. anyway, so i picked IVEVAH. it's just another version of 'forever' that my boyfriend and i coined in high school. get it? no? well, the iv is equivalent to the roman numeral of four which is phonetically the same as 'for' and evah is an-adolescent-who-likes-erykah-badu-and-adds-an-ah-to-the-end-of-everything-because-apparently-it-means-breath-of-heaven's version of 'ever'. so there you have it. welcome.


the point of this blog is to record my day to day doings because i'm THAT interesting. that was sarcastic of course. really, my goal is to make a book at the end of all this like dooce (just kidding, again. sort of). but success, fame and fortune are not the only reasons i'm starting this. honestly, i just like to share. i feel like i have been through enough in my twenty six years of living to make an addictive read. i have a few blogs i follow on the regular because i find their content interesting and they share. i like them and boy, are they addictive. it would be an honour to join their ranks but i feel that it'll be awhile. so follow me, tell your friends and hope my content inspires a conversation, a photo or something. and please don't hesitate to share it with me. a word of caution about me though, i sometimes suffer from writer's block. i'll try to write every other day as a start. what i'll write about, i'm not sure. but i promise to try to keep you entertained.

loads and loads of love - carlafelix